So last night, in the midst of horrible, if funny, dreams, I didn't sleep well. I've been waking up at my usual time and can't go back to sleep usually. The latest I sleep in is 8. I've been having trouble getting to sleep. I feel my heart racing down in my big toe (the left) and I haven't even had coffee since a week ago.
It leaves me exhausted. Today I was trying to sleep at about 4 PM and I kept jerking whenever I started to drift off and it'd wake me up. I remember an episode of House said that's your body thinking it's dying. I think it's just panic. I try to be happy and positive and everything, but sometimes I'm anxious beyond all that. I think it's for good reason sometimes. Sometimes I just worry about my hellos but sometimes there are real concerns that leave me panicked.
To try and get back to sleep, I check my email, blog, and sit on Skype. Sometimes I'll listen to music or watch comedy routines with Demitri Martin or someone. I want to sleep. It'd be easier to be catatonic. But I don't think I'm even going to try for the next few days.
I hope you're sleeping well and having pleasant dreams.
It leaves me exhausted. Today I was trying to sleep at about 4 PM and I kept jerking whenever I started to drift off and it'd wake me up. I remember an episode of House said that's your body thinking it's dying. I think it's just panic. I try to be happy and positive and everything, but sometimes I'm anxious beyond all that. I think it's for good reason sometimes. Sometimes I just worry about my hellos but sometimes there are real concerns that leave me panicked.
To try and get back to sleep, I check my email, blog, and sit on Skype. Sometimes I'll listen to music or watch comedy routines with Demitri Martin or someone. I want to sleep. It'd be easier to be catatonic. But I don't think I'm even going to try for the next few days.
I hope you're sleeping well and having pleasant dreams.
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